- Before starting treatment
I was suffering from the pain of death, but at the same time, I enjoyed the utmost pleasure. I repeated this pattern and became addicted. I thought I would get out of it when the partner hurt me, but I know it is impossible from experience.
I was always in stress and I was irritable toward my wife and children. I couldn't think anything, so I went out for a drive. The only thinking I was able to do was about the woman. Then, I felt my life was worthless and I didn't know why I was alive, only until she called me. Then, I just ran to her no matter what. I have experienced all kinds of stressful situations while I was doing business, but this was the worst stress I have ever had. I knew that I needed professional help.
- The process of treatment
She called again. I couldn't bear anymore, so I decided to take KIP treatment program.
It turned out that both the woman and I were in a serious condition of psychological disorder. I hadn't even known that there was such a thing called relationship addiction.
I think that I should have known about it earlier, but then, I think how lucky I am to know about before it is too late.
I thought that all i had to do for my family was to give them affluence. I never thought that I needed my family to have passion in mimind.
I was passion itself when I got married. I kept setting a new goal as soon as I achieved one. I became successful at my business.
From some time I don't remember exactly when, I began to pursue pleasure and justified myself. I thought I deserved it since I had worked so much. What a dangerous idea.
I became patient since I started the treatment. I could have never even imagine it before.
I went for shopping with may daughter and my wife. My daughter thanked me for buying her things. I said she could thank her mother in spite of myself.
She said she was moved by my words.
My wife tells me to act usual since I started the treatment. She says that I look different and it makes her feel uncomfortable. She seems to like it.
I used to think that I was a good father, but now I know that I was not.
My wife doesn't know that I have relationship addiction. She shouldn't.
I was angry that the woman took advantage of me, but today, I feel a little sorry for her.
I know that my treatment is delayed when I think about the woman. I must restore myself and my passion.
I never want to go through such pain and suffering.
I plan to go all the way for my treatment. .
I want to let my children know about this program when they become adults.
It will be the best gift I give them in all their life.